I gave in…

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…and had some vanilla cake with blue frosting, a nice drink of club soda and vodka with a lime, and a piece of gum afterwards. Three non-Whole30 cheats and I felt so disappointed in myself and felt so guilty. Thank God it was all a dream! The past two nights I have had dreams that I unknowingly ate food that does not comply with Whole30; I remember having these dreams the last time I did this detox. Honestly, I have not had any cravings that would make me want to dream about that stuff! So weird.

This time around, Whole30 seems so much easier. I think the biggest change is the mental aspect of it all. Knowing that I have done it before gives me hope and drive to complete another 30 days! I feel a lot more energetic and can tell my body is healthier all together. What’s changed the most for me is nighttime eating; since some days I work pretty long hours, I would just want to come home and eat a meal and chill. Usually it would be a sweet potato or some veggies, meat, and sometimes some paleo treats or something else as a ‘dessert’.

With Whole30, I only eat a sweet potato post-workout and cut out dessert. Today is day 8, so I’m looking forward to how day 30 will feel! ūüôā

WODs have been crazy lately. With the CrossFit Open starting (way too) soon, training purposes have switched! Yesterday, we did 5 rounds: 1k row, 15 pullups, 15 thrusters, 15 burpees. Do the math… Maybe my dreams are telling me I need more carbs? ūüėČ Today was a nice rest day and I am anxious to see what tomorrow brings!

I’m snowed in… snow what now?

If you haven’t heard, Illinois go snow dumped on it all day.  There’s so much snow that I could barely open my front door!  I went outside earlier and tried to play with Lizzy, but that only lasted about 10 minutes before she wanted to come inside.  With that being said, I haven’t left home all day which is not my normal Sunday.  It has been kind of nice and I am thankful I was one of the crazies who went out yesterday to get all my errands done before the snowpocalypse hit!

I was halfway successful in prepping for the week today (only between episodes of Breaking Bad – thank god for Netflix and that my internet didn’t go out!).  Here’s what I fixed:

Waiting for the egg to get to room temp to make...

Waiting for the egg to get to room temp to make…

Paleo Mayo!

Paleo Mayo!

Roasted brocc and b sprouts with pecans

Roasted brocc and b sprouts with pecans

Grass-fed chuck roast in the crock pot.  Monkey peeler approves.

Grass-fed chuck roast in the crock pot. Monkey peeler approves.

Since I still have some leftovers, I plan on eating that and some easy throw together meals (salad, tuna, raw veggies, etc.).  Being stuck inside and being lazy makes me crave food, but I held back.  And I have zero cheat food here so it was a little impossible.  I found this on Instagram and thought it was pretty spot on for those who question Whole30/Paleo!

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Julie Andrews isn’t Paleo or she would know how much there IS to eat!!

Thanks to Molly, I downloaded the Nom Nom Paleo app!  There are SO many recipes and cool tools.  I can’t wait to go to the store again and sample them!

That concludes my Sunday and day 4.  Now time to eat some meatza, salad, and watch more Breaking Bad!  Sometimes snow isn’t always a bad thing.. ūüôā

Lizzy watching the snow fall

Lizzy watching the snow fall

 

 

 

 

And so it begins…

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After maybe one of the craziest years ever, I am happy looking back at all the memories made and moments lived in 2013.¬† The highlight of the year happened on July 20th when my oldest sister, Liana, tied the knot with her man.¬† I wish I could re-live that weekend all the time; she set the bar high for weddings!¬† Glad I won’t have to worry about competing against it for a while ūüėČ

If I had to describe 2013, I would have to call it a wild roller coaster ride.¬† There were many low and challenging points that I could never imagine happening, but they were balanced out by many good things!¬† Needless to say, I am ready to welcome 2014 and see where it takes me!¬† With that being said…

Tomorrow is my day 1 of my second Whole30.¬† I started this blog when I did my first Whole30 so I could hold myself accountable and put it out to the blogosphere that I was cleaning up my eating for 30 days.¬† A lot has changed since then: I was at ISU and now I am working full-time, finances are different, my training had changed a lot, and I am in good ol’ Springfield (not Normal, IL).

Liana and her hubby completed¬† a Whole30 not too long ago and it inspired me to want to give it another shot.¬† After seeing Snapchat after Snapchat of her food and hearing about her and Jonathan’s results, I decided to reach out to her and Molly to see if they wanted to join.¬† Little did we know that it would turn into a ‘Real Life Eating’ 30-day challenge for anyone to do along with us.¬† They have a little bit different guidelines they are following, but being a stubborn Taurus, I am going to try and go by Whole30 rules.

Last time I did my Whole30, I felt GREAT and even continued it for a few weeks after the 30 days was up.¬† My post-challenge celebration was my last day of finals and my ISU Graduation.¬† Needless to say, I was sensitive to alcohol and it ended up not staying in my body when I came home for the night.¬† I learned my lesson… after Whole30, don’t drink like a regular college student!

I will try to post at least 3 times a week on here and give updates of my food and where I found recipes/resources.¬† I hope to cook some meals today to get me through the rest of the week and get this thing going.¬† Hopefully the first few days don’t give me bad headaches like last time!

Here’s to a healthy January and beastly WODs!

 

Day 30… Hooray!!!

Today is day 30 of my Whole30 challenge; I kind of can’t believe that it’s already here and that I was able to make it 100%.¬† More than anything, this was a learning experience for me.¬† Here are the things I have learned over this past month:

Going public was the key.

The reason I started this blog was to put it out there on a public website that I was attempting something that I knew I’d need to be held accountable for.¬† I didn’t care (and still don’t) if no one reads this, it’s the fact that I can vent about whatever and keep myself on track.¬† In my head, I felt that if I cheated, I would be held accountable by my blog… Kind of weird, but it has literally helped me so much.¬† Facebook also helped; I got tips, recipes, and encouragement from so many people =)¬† Living in a college town surrounded by drunk kids isn’t always the most motivating setting…¬†that’s why I attribute my success to this blog!

When I get bored, I get “hungry”.

This might have been my biggest struggle during the Whole30.  Since this month is April, I am/was finishing up big projects and homework for my final semester here at Illinois State and found myself bored a lot.  By bored, I mean sitting, staring at books, and aimlessly typing on my computer for hours.  I started to notice that I would think I was hungry, but it was more mental than physical.  Even if I would have a good portioned meal, ten minutes later I would be craving more.  This got old fast.  Then, I found my savior.

Vanilla Rooibos tea.  The taste of it is slightly sweet in a weird way, but always satisfied me and kept me from overeating or indulging in the bad stuff.  Who would have thought that tea would keep me on track?  This stuff is bomb.

I need more for my post-workout meal.

I recently just figured this out.¬† After talking to my sisters and CF coaches about my bad hunger pains about 30 minutes after my normal post-wod¬†meal, they all told me the same thing – EAT MORE!¬† Usually, I would have 2 hard-boiled eggs and one sweet potato baby food.¬† So now, I am eating 1.5 or 2 (depending on the wod¬†intensity) baby foods and 2 eggs + 2 whites.¬† After I run through my baby food storage, I am going to try to switch to real sweet potatoes and see how that goes.¬† So to all you people who enjoy the aroma of my eggs and the perfect mixture of baby food, I am happily going to keep doing it ūüėõ

Numbers don’t work for me.

Something I didn’t do when starting Whole30¬†was weigh myself.¬† I had an idea of where I was because we have to do height and weight for some¬† of the fitness tests we do in my classes, but I typically hate weighing myself.¬† I always have and I think it’s because I have always been tall compared to everyone and my numbers were always over what everyone else was, so I would avoid it at all costs.¬† I have grown out of that stage and I could care less if people know what I weigh, but it’s still a stupid numbers game that is planted in too many people’s heads.¬† The scale tells you nothing.¬† I even vented about it in a previous post.

Some people have asked how I track my progress if I don’t weigh myself… DUH! There’s so many ways… I pay attention to the way I feel, how my workouts go, and how my clothes fit.¬† If I focused on numbers, I would be in a hissy 24/7.¬† I didn’t bother taking pictures either because I would be too tempted to compare myself and that’s a negative thing for me to do.

My body takes a long time to adjust and change.

Unfortunately, I am not the type that has one of those magical bodies that changes¬†a week after¬†I change something… not even after three weeks do I see a physical difference.¬† Literally today may be the first day that I noticed a tiny¬†change physically.¬† I know that it takes an average of 6 weeks for physical changes to happen, but you know how frustrating it can be especially reading people’s success stories after only 20 or 30 days.¬† That is another reason why I am dragging out my Whole30 for some more time.¬† Mentally, the changes took place really fast, which is awesome!¬† So, I have come to peace with the fact that I am a slow-changer and am glad that I started when I did.

I am very sensitive to carbohydrates.

I first found this out when I started living the Paleo life about 2 years ago, but I had no idea just how sensitive I was until this challenge.¬† I have to limit my veggies, or else I am a bloated gross mess – that goes for all types of veggies.¬† I can’t eat broccoli (my favorite!), cauliflower, brussels sprouts, or asparagus either.¬† Those kill my stomach.¬† So what do I eat, you ask?¬† Zucchini, kale, and spinach have become my three amigos.¬† I sparingly add in some root veggies, such as: parsnips, carrots, spaghetti squash, and beets.¬† Oh! and how could I forget my new fave, swiss chard!¬† I love my veggies, but I have to limit them unless I want to walk around looking 6 months pregnant.

I have the greatest people in my life.

Throughout my journey, I have received great support from everyone!¬† I knew that I had amazing people around me, but this really made me see it.¬† I am lucky to have two “home” CrossFit boxes and each of them has a special place in my heart.¬† The people at Fit Bodies CrossFit and CrossFit Instinct¬†keep me going, physically and mentally.¬† Being able to have that community of people is such a huge part in my life and is a positive escape that I know I always have.¬† I truly believe that everything happens for a reason and I am so grateful that everything has happened the way it has.¬† So here’s to you… Thank you!

 

So yes, after I brush my teeth tonight and lay in bed, it will officially be the end of 30 days of this learning experience.¬† As I have said earlier, I am going to continue living by these guidelines… until May 9th.¬† Why that day? Well, don’t hold it against me.¬† That’s the last day of my finals and my sister and I are going to celebrate!¬† She is graduating with her Master’s and I will have my Bachelor’s degree… and it’s 2 days after my 22nd birthday, so I say that’s reason to have a drink.¬† Or three. Or more.

Besides that, I want¬†to keep eating good – No excuses for small cheats or excuses.¬† The thing is I know I can do it, so it’s just a matter of doing it!¬† The day I sip my first non-Whole30¬†drink will be day 43, so I will hae completed 42 days of a super clean lifestyle.¬† That’s 6 weeks.¬† It’s already been kind of a¬†roller coaster of emotions, cravings, bloatings, headaches and wonderful highs from clean eating.¬† And I don’t regret one bit of it.

It’za meatza!

Today has been 100 times better than the past two days, thank god.¬† It started to get better last night when I went to go see Shrek the Musical with my sister!¬† It was hilarious and I got to spend time with my soon-to-be-wed sister, so we chatted about her wedding and now I’m even more excited for her (and her fianc√©e!)¬† Even though I got home late and went to bed almost 2 hours later than usual, I still slept like a rock.¬†¬†[I didn’t move at all again. Two nights in a row of no movement during sleep = slightly sore hip in the a.m.]¬† But, I woke up feeling great, not bloated, and not craving something that I shouldn’t.¬† Woo!

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After my first class, I made my way to get my CrossFit on.  It kicked my @ss.  Literally.  I am already sore.  Instead of toe 2 bar, I did GHD sit-ups because my hands were of stage 2-rippage from earlier this week.

Needless to say, 168 overhead walking lunges are no joke.¬† Neither are 84 GHDs.¬† And thanks to peer pressure, the tabata¬†sit-ups and supermans put the cherry on top.¬† Walking and standing up straight tomorrow will be interesting.¬† BUT, I felt AMAAAAZING¬†afterwards.¬† I ‚̧ WODing!¬† =)¬† Kind of obsessed.

I am trying out a new recipe!¬†¬†MEATZA!¬† I made a smaller recipe since it’s just me eating it and I wouldn’t want anything to go bad.¬† Here’s the info:

1 lb. ground beef

1/2 cups tomato sauce

1 cup (maybe more) shredded parsnips

1 cup (about) shredded zucchini

olives (Lindsay brand is the best!)

Organic shiitake mushrooms

spices

Heat oven to 400 and bake for 30 minutes.  It really is that easy!

The finished product!

It might not look the most appetizing, but I had to hurry and put the rest in the fridge before I plowed down the entire thing.¬† So I would call that a success!¬† Besides spilling olives everywhere, making the toppings spill all over my shirt, and almost ruining the whole thing.¬† Hmm… guess it’s a clumsy day!

Random annoyance of the day:¬† I was pulling my blinds up to open the window and they snapped in half and fell.¬† Really.¬† This will be my 4th set of blinds that I have gone through this year.¬† Either I’m too strong for these blinds or my apartment place just keeps giving me crappy blinds.¬† I’ll go with number 2.¬† So now I have no blinds on one window… I’m glad I have tall bushes in front of it so I can still dance to Nelly while I cook (usually it’s Wayne Dyer, but I was feeling a little Country Grammar today).

And one of the most important things…. It’s the end of DAY 29! What what?!¬† It doesn’t matter too much though because I am going until May 9th ūüėȬ† But still.¬† Pretty pumped!

 

I’m riding the struggle bus today

What is it about today?¬† I’m going to get out all negativity right now:

-It’s depressing, cold, and cloudy outside

-It’s Tuesday

-I’m still sore from Friday (even after other workouts)

-School is annoying

-I’m still tired after a solid 8.5 hours of sleep.¬† By solid I mean no-movement-I-woke-up-in-the-same-spot

-Hunger pains have been striking a lot lately

-Motivation is at an all time low

The bottom line says it all.¬† The thing is that I don’t know why!¬† Last week felt amazing and I was pumped to eat good and WOD¬†hard.¬† Now, this week has done a complete 180.¬† Cravings are hard core and I feel like a lazy slug.¬† If I had no self-control and real-life views on eating, I would go out and buy some candy, ice cream, popcorn, and other devastating cheat food and sulk in my laziness.¬† Thankfully I know better and would feel sick for days¬†if I indulged that bad.

Man, this is a real uplifting post, huh?

The thing is, today is day 28 and I thought I would be feeling on top of the world and super¬†duper motivated to keep going… it couldn’t be more of the opposite.¬† Aaaagggghhhh.¬† Hopefully going to WOD¬†in a couple of hours will help get me out of this annoying funk.

The one cool, superfun thing I am doing tonight???  My sister and I are going to go see Shrek live in Peoria!  How awesome  is that?!

Staying up a bit later than normal will totally be worth it.¬† This will be a good break from my typical Tuesday night consisting of The Biggest Loser.¬† I. Can’t. Wait. Weeeeee!

Whole30 Friday nights

So what does one do on a Friday night when they are strict Whole30? Watch your boyfriend (aka “Mad Dog”) play MLB video games. I’d rather watch that than real baseball though!

But it gets better. I came home to work this weekend and happened to get my ego stroked. Yes, an ex-pro arm wrestler creeped on me. I finally feel accomplished in life.

Ummm, have I told you how sore I am?? Oh em gee. Tomorrow will feel even more awesome! I bet the coconut flakes I’m eating will make it better.

This was a quick rap up of my day. Time to go get warm and snuggly in bed!

Monday fun day

You know what today is?¬† Monday.¬† Obviously.¬† It’s also the busiest day of the week and the day to go grocery shopping.¬† But, most importantly, today is day 20.¬† Yes, that’s TWO-ZERO.¬† Ten plus ten.¬† Two weeks and 6 days.¬† 480 hours.¬† 28,800 minutes.¬† Okay, you get the point; can you tell I’m pretty stoked?

Things have been up and down with my Whole30 experience.¬† It started off great and I felt like things were going to be¬† breeze.¬† Then, day 13 came and my cravings were awful (it didn’t help the hormone monsters were visiting…).¬† Visions of sugarplums were taking over my head, but I survived.¬† Barely.

This past weekend might have been the easiest weekend of eating I’ve been through.¬† On Friday, I made a ton of veggies and cooked up some meat so I could bring them with me when I went back home for a couple of days.¬† Again, preparation is the key to being successful.¬† Something else that has been saving me is toasted coconut flakes with cinnamon.¬† Whoa, they are awesome.¬† They kind of remind me of my fave cereal Cinnamon Toast Crunch (I couldn’t tell you the last time I ate that!)

Today is also the day I usually have to make a trip to the grocery store to stock up for the week.¬† Ohhh¬†it’s always an interesting trip. ¬†I got stopped by three different people who wanted to know about my Vibrams.¬† One of them actually said he likes the look of them- that’s a first!¬† I still think they’re super ugly haha

The best part of going to the store… The checkout line.¬† I think the cashiers dread¬†when I roll up to check out because they have to figure out what veggies I have and type in the code for all the separate bags.¬† Today I got asked what kale was and then she rang my parsnips up as turnips… close enough I guess.

I made my weekly breakfast while listening to Wayne Dyer’s “Wishes Fulfilled”.¬† whenever¬†I listen to his stuff, my whole mindset changes and everything falls into place.¬† Ahhh, it’s like heaven.

Dinner time!¬† I threw together a bomb¬†salad with steak on top.¬† My plate was so full that while I was eating it, pieces were falling all over me.¬† I’m glad no one was here to watch me eat – I probably look like a starved slob who hasn’t ever eaten.¬† Hey, I was hungry.¬† And I was trying to pay attention to my guilty pleasure TV show, Wheel of Fortune.¬† If I would ever get on that show, I would totally rock it.¬† Not to sound cocky, but I would. ūüėČ

I just noticed that my collar bones are bruised from working on cleans today.¬† It looks really awkward having two dark spots there… at least it matches my bright red thumbs (hook grip, what?!).

Fact of the day:  100-calorie pack Lorna Doone cookies used to be my snack and dessert when I was in grade school/ high school.  I am so glad I have replaced them with veggies, nuts, and meat.  Although, they caught my eye at the store tonight and made me drool a little bit.

Nom nom nom nom

 

 

 

Eating out on Whole30

Oh. My. Gosh. I got my @$$ kicked by Miss Elizabeth this morning. Squat cleans and dips are a dirty dirty combo on a Saturday morning. My triceps feel like noodles and my hips and I’m just waiting for DOMS (delayed onset muscle soreness) to take over my body. Besides all that, nothing’s better than a morning WOD back at CrossFit Instinct!!

Yesterday, I had the itch to lift some heavy $h!t. Must have been built up stress over my hellacious paper that I was going to turn in. Anyway, after a quick WOD, I attempted to get a PR on jerks; after some warmup lifts, I tried a new weight. Failed the first attempt. Reset. Failed the second attempt. Reset. Failed the third attempt. Ugh! I was close, and thanks to Coach Janelle at Fit Bodies CrossFit, I got a little bit closer.

Since I had class, I had to leave and realized I walked into the classroom (late..oops) with chalk all over my jacket and hands and handed in my paper. I think giving my teacher a huge project was a better feeling than hitting a PR.

I take that back. It would have been great to get it. Oh well, next time!

Last night, I went out to eat for the first time on my Whole30. My whole family was in town to celebrate my sister’s teaching award (she’s the best!) so they respected my wishes and we went somewhere easy to eat clean. Let’s just say Station 220 is DA BOMB. They serve local grown food and were great about respecting my restrictions. Here’s a pic of what I got:

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It was awesome. Almost too good to be true! The other stuff on the menu looked amazing too, such as the pomme frites, meatballs, wine, and hummus. But, I just sipped on my water and patiently waited for my steak and veggies. And it was so worth it.

So today’s day 17 and in finally feeling so good. I don’t want to cheat and I love the food I’ve been making. Let’s just hope this lasts two more weeks!

Dirty jokes and bison banks

Serioiusly, I’m going to cry.¬† My internet has been so f’d up lately and is SUPER annoying when I’m trying to get stuff done.¬† And every other computer program sucks, too.¬† See my rants below.

Until then, I’m going to start this post off with a joke… Brace yourself, it’s a little dirty…

A broccoli stem, a pickle and a penis were talking about their awful lives.¬† The broccoli stem said, “My life sucks, when I get big and fat, they cut me up and cook me”. The pickle said, “When I get big and fat they cover me in vinegar & throw me in a jar”. The penis said, “When I get big and fat they pull a plastic bag over my head, stick me in a dark, damp room and bang my head against the wall till I throw up and pass out!”

Hah. found that online and thought that was pretty good.¬† On that note, I repeated some of my meal last night again for dinner.¬† Broccoli and mushrooms sauteed in coocnut oil with balsmic vinegar and a bison burger.¬† Can you tell I’ve been pretty obsessed with bison lately?¬† I went to Naturally Yours (in Normal) to pick up some coconut flakes and of course I bought more than I planned on originally – Grass fed bison was calling my name, so of course I had to buy it.

My sister used to have a bison-piggy bank (bison-y bank?) when we were little.¬† How weird is that?¬† Maybe that’s why I like it so much.

Anyway, got through my WOD today (thanks to Molly for this one)… 400m row, 15 ring pullups, 300m row, 12 c2b pullups, 200m row, 9 strict chin ups, 100m row.¬† Tougher than I thought and I can feel my lats already getting sore!¬† Plus I haven’t rowed in a long time, so that always is a burner.¬† But, that was nothing compared to how the rest of my afternoon went.

My wonderful teacher assigned us a huge paper towards the beginning of the semester.¬† Nooo, I didn’t wait until the last minute to do it; I actually had a lot done.¬† It’s due tomorrow (Friday the 13th go figure) and I didn’t think I was going to make it.¬† I’m just going to put this out there.¬† Microsoft Word sucks. Especially when it’s a 40 page paper that’s in different segments, needs page numbers, and has to have headings.¬† I almost threw my computer out the window.

As soon as I was done, I finally went to print.  It felt I just hit a PR because I was finally done.  Ooooh no, I was wrong.  After a slight victory dance, I looked down and my ink was out.  UUUUGGGGHHH.  The worst part is that I was hungry and was about to start cooking my heavenly broccoli that I was pumped for, but I had to go buy ink.  Fail.  Goodbye $20 that I could spend on something more useful.  And goodbye 20 minutes that I had to stand in line at the bookstore instead of getting ready to plow some Whole30 goodness.

If that’s the worst of my worries, I guess I have it pretty good. Ha!¬† Oh, and today’s day 16.¬† Chugga chugga, chugga chugga, I think I can, I think I can… two weeks.

I want to give a shout-out to my parents… Today is their 33rd anniversary; together for 39 years!¬† Isn’t that awesome?!¬† They are two of the coolest people I know.¬† They are the ultimate CrossFit and Paleo beasts and are truly strong in all aspects of life.¬† I love you, Mom and Dad! xoxo

Lesson of the day: No matter what I do, Vanilla Rooibos Tea purchased at Starbucks (and made by their baristas) always turns out 10 times better than when I make it ūüė¶ wah.